Is it possible to love your second baby as much as your first?
It is such an exciting time when a first baby is born. We know that we can share in every little moment, every little breath. This is what we have been waiting for and we are ready to give every little bit of our love.
So what happens when you’ve made a decision to have a second child? As you are waiting for your new baby you may wonder if it is even possible to love another baby as much as your first. Will you be taking something away from your older child? How will you be able to share your love between two? Yes, it’s different when a second baby is on the way. Yes, it’s exciting, without a doubt! It’s also a tiny bit heartbreaking in some ways…. and I am so thankful to a friend for sharing this letter with me all those years ago. Let these words ease your mind as they did mine…
I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?
Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you’ve never shared me before.
I hear you telling me in your own way, “Please love only me”. And I hear myself telling you in mine, “I can’t”, knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.
But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I’m afraid to let you see me enjoying him—as though I am betraying you.
But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection.
More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.
But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times – only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other.
I watch how he adores you — as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you.
I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you—only differently.
And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you’ll never share my love. There’s enough of that for both of you .
I love you—-both. And I thank you both for blessing my life. —Author Unknown
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